[ . . . Of course some girl contextualizes it in a way she's forced to understand. Elda's hands open and close out of fists. She grits her teeth, but then releases her tension, and... ]

... Honestly, it disgusted me - the idea of infantilizing all of you so-called "kids." The first list she gave me included Blue of all people. She was twenty, barely any younger than Fern herself.

[ Exhale. ]

Still, it isn't my place to say if you got something out of it. At this point, I've some regrets about if we could have talked more.