[This line of thinking will make more sense to her on Sunday.

That doesn't mean a small part of her isn't capable of understanding it now. Maybe not that weakness, but that responsibility; of being the one left standing because someone else is gone.]

You weren't weak, you were just young. In all those scenarios you've run through, one "what if" after another; do you really believe things would be different for the better if you'd acted another way then, or are you just getting by on wishful thinking?