No, you don't understand, it was my fault. She's gone because of me, so it's not about what I deserved. All of our lives, she deserved more than what I ever gave her, but the one time I tried to protect her...

[There's a low, bitter noise of frustration as she reaches up to rub at her eyes frantically. With that and the words coming out of her mouth, it's a more open form of vulnerability than she's shown here before.]