[...Sayaka actively has to avert her eyes a bit at that, though it...doesn't seem to be out of shame. It's more that she's actually trying to process that. And it's...going to take a bit of processing, that's for sure, because she can practically feel her own head fighting her every step of the way.
...It's going to take a bit, a solid minute or so of contemplation while her brain does some sick goddamn loop de loops.]
That's always the way I thought it had to be. [Note the past tense, there.] That if you thought 'bad' things, you were automatically 'bad' for it. And if you were 'bad', then you had to go to every length to hide it so you could stay a 'good' person. If you thought like that, you had to shove it down, and...that's the way things worked, at home.
[She's stated that much enough, and...mmph, she's still trying to process this, and it's...getting there? Slowly? But surely?
...She stops for a bit and looks up at Luca.]
...Luca-san, I owe you an apology, first off. I...know you've said stuff like this to me before, but... [She actually feels kind of bad for just pretending to accept it.] ...I think I only accepted what you said just because it made you happy and made me stop dwelling on it, for a while.
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...It's going to take a bit, a solid minute or so of contemplation while her brain does some sick goddamn loop de loops.]
That's always the way I thought it had to be. [Note the past tense, there.] That if you thought 'bad' things, you were automatically 'bad' for it. And if you were 'bad', then you had to go to every length to hide it so you could stay a 'good' person. If you thought like that, you had to shove it down, and...that's the way things worked, at home.
[She's stated that much enough, and...mmph, she's still trying to process this, and it's...getting there? Slowly? But surely?
...She stops for a bit and looks up at Luca.]
...Luca-san, I owe you an apology, first off. I...know you've said stuff like this to me before, but... [She actually feels kind of bad for just pretending to accept it.] ...I think I only accepted what you said just because it made you happy and made me stop dwelling on it, for a while.