...Good grief. [She mutters this to herself, sounding truly unhappy. Wistful.] You're not as warped as he is, but that isn't saying much.

['He'? Rin shakes her head, and continues right on, voice stronger.]

No one's telling you how to feel right now. I can't be the first person to tell you not to be so hard on yourself; if it were that easy, you'd have been happier weeks ago.

Whatever's coming out of your mouth, then, is closer to the real deal. If you're uncertain about how much you're hurting, it just means your wires are crossed and you're not sure where that hurt is coming from.