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[ Sometime shortly after the trial small notes will be folded underneath the doors of everyone still alive, and also posted to the staircase leading up to the upper floors. Not many of you have probably seen Elda's penmanship yet unless you checked that Penmanship check a while back, but it's impossibly impeccable fancy cursive script, to match with her old timey appearance. ... She also writes a lot more proper than she talks. ]

To My Fellows,

The half of you who didn't assist me in this are cordially invited to a celebration of our continued living, and to the memories of those who aren't. We are a mismatched group,
but it has become increasingly clear that we are together in this. Do not allow yourself to be alone.

We will be congregating in the ballroom for the rest of the night.

Better chefs than I will be providing food.

Sincerely,
Elda Marker

[ she's being somewhat facetious about half the group, but the fact does remain that she got more offers than she expected, when she set out to do this. She had expected that Sayaka would help, and indeed both her and Alex provide cookies and curry for the tables. Elda herself sets up the tables, dotting one longer central one made of smaller ones in the ballroom for things to sit on. The bulk of the food's provided by Tarrlok of all people, Chinese food by any other name. Susan, bless her, provides alcohol. Hibki, once she was clean, decided to run backup on preparing the food.

And then perhaps fittingly, Aligula provided the decorations. Steamers line the room, and little cut outs hang around. At Elda's instruction, it's a mix of cats, snakes, and bats. The majority of them have little faces on them. And finally, as and afterthought more than anything else, Elda makes some tea.

... Said tea is black tea and is impossibly dark and bitter because she can't taste it, but maybe that's what you want on a night like this. Who knows. ]

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...You talk about love all the time, and you say you don't care about people?

[Aligula, sweetie, no. Do not start with this, Sayaka just...she's gonna at least try to put a hand on her shoulder.]

I'm not asking you to throw a pity party, or anything like that. I'm...I'm saying that if something effecting you, that you shouldn't let it fester. Because that's what happens, when you leave everything unattended for too long. It festers, it becomes infected and it...really poisons you, you know?

[...]

Talk to me. Please. I understand what you mean, but...you hold so much in, and you're just trying to keep yourself the way you are without confronting it, right?

[That's her assumption, and her tone...it isn't accusatory. It's more pleading, than anything, that she do something to confront it before something happens.]

[ ...Sayaka's a good girl. Aligula's gonna frown a second (she can put a hand on her shoulder, sure) and then pat her head. Gently. Her tone's peeved, but— ]

I really thought Chitoge and Evolutionary were really fun people, and I was totally looking forward to doing all kinds of junk with them, but... all that happened. [ Chitoge, not Dexterous. She knows, she knows, but she asked the girl for her name, she might as well use it if she's gonna be giving into Sayaka's pleading. ] Boundless was great too, and she was supposed to be hosting the Christmas party with me! She said she'd help me carry food and stuff up, and I bet she would've made something really tasty, too...

[ Hfff. ]

Observant and Ambitious were two of the first humans here that, like, didn't get on my case for acting the way I do about, you know, this whole dumb murder situation thing. I mean, Ambitious was super rude to me in the beginning, but he wasn't that bad? And Observant was really frustrating at the end, but I liked talking to him a whole bunch about stuff. They were both really awful people, you know. [ It was great. ] Tenacious was totally awful too, buuuut I've had a little talk about him recently and decided he's definitely gonna stay the bottom rung.

[ That's not cryptic at all, thanks Aligula—? ]

So you know, I'm really mad about like, three of them and then totally frustrated about all of them for being total dumb-dumbs. That's all. [ She'll tilt her face over, pouting. ] Happy, you psychoanalyzing harpy?

[ .......it doesn't sound like it's meant to be an insult. ]

[See, you emotionally constipated cyclops, doesn't it feel good to acknowledge your feelings and get them out of your system?

...She'd say that if she had a lot less decorum, but she's gonna refrain and keep her hand on Aligula's shoulder as she talks. It's a lot, certainly, but she pleaded for this much in the hopes that Aligula would get it off her chest and her mind, just...lift that weight up and throw it out, for once.]

That's understandable, you know? That those people had such an effect on you, that their loss would make you feel like...they got stolen from you, or stole themselves away. [It's selfish, sure, but when were feelings ever not?] They were people who were fun, and people who understood you. It's not a bad thing to be effected by that, but holding it all in isn't healthy for you. As someone who's done that professionally, at this point? I can tell you with certainty that it'll explode one day.

[...Sayaka smiles a bit, though. Even with the harpy comment.]

A little, I admit. How do you feel, letting that out?

[She's half expecting to be yelled at, granted, but...she can't help but be a little happy?]

[ it does not and also sayaka, about like, sunday? do you wanna talk because holy shit, ]

Like I want a parfaaaaait. [ There's... no yelling, she's just grabbing Sayaka to lean against her. ] And tired. And, like, like I never, ever wanna think about those idiots ever again.

[ ...so, you know, probably better. ]

Make me one and I'll consider us even for making me talk about this junk.

[girl, come the fuck at her, let's be fucked up]

I'd say that's a fair trade for getting some weight off your mind. Come on, let's head to the kitchen...actually, I'll go to my room first and drop some of this stuff off, if you wanna meet me over there? Your call, Aligula-san.

[She...doesn't mind the leaning, though. She doesn't tense too much, but she'll smile and remove her hand from Aligula's shoulder.]

[ THERE YOU GO, ONE FUCKED UP THREAD TO COME. ]

Let me help you drop this stuff and we can go together? [ The third option, obviously. ] And... just Aligula's fine, Attentive. I've been meaning to tell you that, like, ever since Pragmatic told me what "-san" means.

[AWW YEAH]

Alright, that works perfectly. [...oh, that--that actually gets Sayaka to pause, but...you know, she's been dropping it from people steadily, so...well, alright. She smiles.] And...Aligula it is, then. It's...still a request I'm getting used to from some of you, but I'll be sure to keep that up.

[Lets get a'walkin', then.]

...It's mostly out of respect, that I use it, though. And...because it's usually expected? Is it really that weird seeming?

As much as I totally like the respect, we're... [ ...steeling herself a little, though it's not evident at all in how she says it. ] Friends, right? And she said people who're friends just call each other by their names.

[ ...so it stands to reason that her and Sayaka can do that too, if they ask? Yeah? Something like that. ]

[...Sayaka smiles a bit.]

Yeah. Yeah, I'd say we're friends, Aligula. But...don't feel like you have to do the same, okay? It's more than okay.

If you're sure... [ ... ] I'll just think of a cute way to shorten your title.

[ She's heard "Sayaka" so much she reasonably knows how it's said

but consider: Attenty. ]

...Is there a way to do that?

[It seems like a pretty straightforward word to her. But maybe she's just basic?]

[ ...Give her a second to think about a few... Okay, okay, she's got this. ]

Attenty, Tivvy, Tenten, Atty— [ some giggles. ] Not as cute as what I could make out of your name, but they're not bad?

One day we'll reach to emotions: unexplored, unprecedented

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