It keeps happening

[forcegalactic]

[After that horror show of an execution, Mordecai is still restless from the investigation and trial. He has too much pent-up energy, and plenty of others are sure to be upset, too. Ashley was loved by nearly all of them, the trial was mentally draining, and that execution was crueler than it should have been.

Two hours after everyone has returned to their rooms, they'll find a note slipped under their doors.]

We can't go on with empty stomachs. There's food in the kitchen, and the dining room is always open if you need someone to talk to.

Please keep anything outside of eating and civilized conversation away from the dining hall. That room is meant to be a peaceful place for those of us that need it.

-Mordecai Benmont Jiminy

[Today, there's cream of tomato soup warming up on the stove with a set of bowls besides it. It's a more mindless dish to prepare than mashed potatoes, as much as Mordecai wants to vent his frustrations on the potatoes.

He decides to follow Cabanela's tradition and lights one more candle, and after some consideration, lights a sixth. Let those who cared about either girl pay their respects.]

Comments

[blazeit]

I'm not really game to trade a couple weeks of freedom for another life... but I see your point.

[ Everything's just stopgap solutions, isn't it... ]

Although you should really include yourself in that too, you know?

[charcoalfeather]

[There's never really been a solution to any of it. They'd just been trying to prevent things for three weeks now, and still failed. Spirits were kind of low at the moment.

And it really showed as Rakka's head dipped, her voice breaking a bit with the first word.]

I guess, but... I still don't know what I am, or what I'm supposed to be doing. I remembered that I'm a Haibane, and we have special laws with Humans, but that's all.

[blazeit]

[ That doesn't make a lot of sense out of context, but that's okay. ]

... That's just what you are, though, isn't it more important who you are?

[charcoalfeather]

It is.

[It doesn't make a lot of sense to Rakka in context, unfortunately.]

... I don't remember who I am. In here, I know that I'm Rakka, but nothing else about myself is coming to me.

[blazeit]

Well, that's okay. If you've got the basics, then the rest is all detail anyway.

[ ... Bakugou is literally hashtag yolo. ]

[charcoalfeather]

You really think so? [That... makes a surprising amount of sense to her, actually. At least she's not crying anymore??]

So, you mean I should... start over again? I-I was thinking that all of my memories were going to come back soon... now, I don't know what to think.

[so... that didn't sound like a bad idea. Not absolutely.

She's thinking about this now. Hmm.]

[blazeit]

Well, you don't have to start over, exactly, but the way I see it, people are basically the result of all their experiences, right? So it doesn't really matter when those experiences happened, or if you remember them. They already are a part of who you are.

[ Again: literally he is hashtag yolo. ]

[charcoalfeather]

....Huh.

[She's not entirely sure how to respond to that. Partly because most of her current experiences were in a terrible murderschool where she got to see friends die. But, nevertheless she figured that he meant well with this.

Hopefully.]

I guess I still have a lot to learn about myself. [Rakka, it's only been a few weeks.] I feel like, somehow, I'm more then what I feel like right now.

[blazeit]

Well yeah, that's how it should be. We've always gotta have more untapped potential to be better than we are in the present, or else nobody'll ever move forward.

[ ... ]

Anyway, I dunno about existential shit like that. I just feel like people have to live and not worry about it too much. Stuff like that, you'll just fuck yourself up if you think about it too hard, 'cause there are no real answers.

[charcoalfeather]

...Umm, okay. [and you were doing so well, Bakugou.

...It's getting Rakka to laugh a little though. Quiet and tired. But yup, that's happening.]

[blazeit]

[ Well hey, he kinda won something here if this went from crying to where they are now! At least, he thinks so. ]

... Anyway, that's probably enough of that for one night. [ In fact, he probably filled his quota for the week. ] I can walk with you the rest of the way to the dining room, if you want.

[charcoalfeather]

I-I'm sorry, but it's funny. That's the first time I've heard you say things like that. [So... she sort of didn't think he knew enough about people to give her that advice??]

...Thank you. And, I would like it if we walked the rest of the way.

[....She stands up fully beside him.]

Uh, and I can walk on my own, too.

[blazeit]

[ HE'S... NOT COMPLETELY UNSOCIALIZED... and he'll let her go, then, he's not entirely comfy being like. A pillar of support. Or something. ]

Sure... I'm not gonna go to the gathering thing, though. Kinda got other stuff on my mind.

[ He's not feeling too up to talking to people he didn't choose to talk to. ]

[charcoalfeather]

[A literal pillar of support, at that. But now that Rakka doesn't look like she's about to burst into tears anymore he's probably good.]

You're not? [In a way, she understood, even if she seemed a little disappointed.]

...Oh. That's alright. I think I get it.

[She doesn't, not entirely. But she understands wanting to be alone at the moment.]

[blazeit]

Some other time.

[ Maybe... no promises. ]

And I'll be around, just... so you know.

[charcoalfeather]

....Sure.

[Some other time then.]

...Oh! And, uh, thank you.

[blazeit]

Don't mention it.

[ ... Seriously, don't. He will not know how to react and that's terrible. ]

[charcoalfeather]

[She will mention it when he least expects it.]