Week 9.

[trustfellows]

WEEK 9 With another death to the timer and another double murder - accidental though that last part may have been - your numbers have been cut even further. Hibiki Ganaha, Sayaka Maizono, Alex, and Kyrie Ushiromiya are all dead, bringing those left alive from twelve down to eight. It's almost hard to believe this started with thirty-five people. There are so few of you now. Saturday is given to regrouping and sleep; come Sunday morning, the clock chimes the hour at seven o'clock and there are no dead bodies to be found, so it can be assumed that all of you are safe for the time being. That said, you'll be feeling a little groggy when you wake up; it seems you've regained something that you didn't realize you'd lost... It seems that the pattern from last week is holding; there is no new floor to occupy yourselves with. It doesn't seem much else has changed, either - leading to questions that are uncomfortable but must be confronted. Namely, where do you go from here? Is there anything you can do? PARTICIPANTS REMAINING: 8

SUNDAY | MONDAY | TUESDAY | WEDNESDAY | THURSDAY | FRIDAY | SATURDAY
[OOC: Welcome to week nine of Trustfell! Feel free to make as many top levels as you'd like and tag out to other characters! This post is for all of your interactions this week... at least until the weekend. Don't forget to save those threads for coins and the activity check!

If you'd like to get in contact with the Coordinators, you can do so through private meetings with Hilda!]

Comments

[bloodisthicker]

...Yes, alright.

[he really doubts Rin's going to take no for an answer, and well... talking has literally never hurt. so he opens up the door and heads back to... bed. yes.

...he's not lying down when company's there but.]

[heritrix]

[After shutting the door, Rin will take a seat at the desk then, turning the chair around to better face him. She sets the stack of envelopes down behind her.]

...You're always so sad lately. I hate seeing you down like this.

[bloodisthicker]

...sorry. It's just been a rough... everything, basically, and it's pretty much all my fault.

...

It does seem like I'm doing better here than I was when I was actually going through things back home. There's that, at least.

[heritrix]

That doesn't say much for things. We're in a murder school.

[Is home really that bad? She knows his bending was stolen, and his brother was doing awful things, but still...]

[bloodisthicker]

Well, yes, because I don't feel entirely like my existence is a mistake and that I should sacrifice myself to take out the Coordinators.

I just feel a bit like that.

[heritrix]

[What?]

That's not funny. Don't even think about it.

[bloodisthicker]

Right, I know. I'm... not going to here. I have reasons not to, but... I didn't exactly have that back home.

[heritrix]

[She seems to relax slightly at that reassurance. Reasons not to... That's a good choice of words, even if the qualifier is disturbing.

Rin stretches her fingers; loops them in the underside of her chair. He seems to be opening up, so she'll ask outright.]

What happened before you came here... [She says the words slowly, likely she's testing them, then gains more confidence. Her tone is surprisingly gentle, however.] You remember it now, don't you? That, and the meaning of your secret written on the wall.

[bloodisthicker]

Yes, I do.

[he kind of... puts his face in his hands.]

I'm not going to say I didn't think about the implications, but I didn't want to spend too much time dwelling on the idea of killing my brother, given everything else we've had to deal with. Maybe I could've prepared myself... but I don't know.

[heritrix]

Like it or not, it's necessary in this place. I've had to put my own problems on the back burner in this place; I'm sure the others have too. It would be too much on top of everything.

[Some muted agreement and support from her end, then. Even if he should have prepared himself, she can see why he didn't.]

[bloodisthicker]

Right, I know. It's just that when it all piles up like this, it just... becomes a little too much to ignore.

[heritrix]

Then don't ignore it. You're stewing in regret right now, right? [...] Since it's come to this, you should face that regret head-on and as soon as possible, not just so you can grieve, but so you can move forward.

When humans hole ourselves up in our heads, our thoughts tend to get repetitive. We think of the same things and questions over and over again. So what is it you're thinking about right now?

[bloodisthicker]

...I'll admit that I've spent a lot of time wondering if my and my brother's existence was a mistake that should have been prevented. Honestly, that's a pretty big part of why Kirei Kotomine's trial got to me. I won't say that I'm ignoring the positive aspects of how things have been playing out here, but... it's definitely something that I was agonizing over in my last memory, and so it's been a difficult feeling to shake off.

[heritrix]

[Kirei Kotomine should not be giving so many people an existential crisis, what the heck.]

I wouldn't call Kirei's existence a mistake, even if he is the scum on the bottom of the barrel. Trust me, Tarrlok. You don't come close.

[bloodisthicker]

...

Yes, that's definitely true. Maybe I just didn't have the best frame of reference...

[heritrix]

[Hmm.] In other words, you think you're bad by your own standards?

[bloodisthicker]

...I'm sure it's bad by a lot of people's standards, honestly.