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It keeps happening

[After that horror show of an execution, Mordecai is still restless from the investigation and trial. He has too much pent-up energy, and plenty of others are sure to be upset, too. Ashley was loved by nearly all of them, the trial was mentally draining, and that execution was crueler than it should have been.

Two hours after everyone has returned to their rooms, they'll find a note slipped under their doors.]

We can't go on with empty stomachs. There's food in the kitchen, and the dining room is always open if you need someone to talk to.

Please keep anything outside of eating and civilized conversation away from the dining hall. That room is meant to be a peaceful place for those of us that need it.

-Mordecai Benmont Jiminy

[Today, there's cream of tomato soup warming up on the stove with a set of bowls besides it. It's a more mindless dish to prepare than mashed potatoes, as much as Mordecai wants to vent his frustrations on the potatoes.

He decides to follow Cabanela's tradition and lights one more candle, and after some consideration, lights a sixth. Let those who cared about either girl pay their respects.]

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[ Dining hall it is, then. They can walk slowly, he has something he wants to say to her that is probably best not heard by others anyway. ]

... Hey, I'm going to ask you to do me a favor. Don't go outside alone at night if you can help it. If you really have to, come get me and I'll go with you.

[ There's a pause. ]

Or somebody else that you trust, I guess.

[ It's so strange, the fact that that trial simultaneously made him feel like he should be protecting others, but also made him feel an uncomfortable awareness that he, too, could probably be motivated to kill under the right circumstances. ]

[She would like it if they walked slowly. Here, Bakugou, enjoy Rakka leaning against you as they walk. It's for support - the physical kind, though possibly the emotional kind is needed too.]

A... favor? [Some mild confusion before he got to explaining. It was as... idea he had there. One that she couldn't find anyway to argue about.]

....W-why?

[Her tone was honest, showing blank confusion as she turned her gaze up at him. It didn't finally click with her until her next sentence.]

Why would I... O-oh...

[Because she could die.]

[ Well, they could all die, but that doesn't make it better... ]

... We need to start doing something to make sure that people aren't baited into killing others anymore.

[ But Bakugou doesn't want to and isn't equipped to try to do that for a group of people, so he'll start with just one person. ]

I don't know what else to do. [ It's blunt, but better to be upfront, right? ] But it's better than nothing.

[Nothing could make it better.]

....But, what can we do about that? I know we need to do something, but...

[What could they do to make it so the Conductor didn't bother them. At the least, a spark of inspiration slipped into Rakka's eyes.]

Maybe we need to do what some of us talked about; more people spending time together, instead of being alone.

... What, you mean like parties and group dinners and crap like that?

[ "Crap" was probably not the right word for him to use there, as it sounds more irreverent than he intended... ]

Yeah, that's probably better than doing nothing.

[ ... He doesn't imagine people will be up for that right away, but maybe in a few days. ]

[A small, sad nod.] Umm, yeah, "c-crap" like that. [she's too drained to realize that swearing is still not the best thing for her.]

....I don't know what else we can do. I've been trying to think about it, but every time, my mind just goes back to the trial...

[And to Asuka. That unfortunate image was burned into her brain by now.]

... Yeah. I think it's gonna be a while before we collectively get our minds off of that huge fucking mess.

[ Even he keeps thinking about it... ]

But that's probably all the more reason to do other stuff. It'd be a distraction, I guess.

...A distraction, but for how long?

[Rakka hated having these sorts of thoughts, and she hated it even more when she had to voice them.]

All of you... probably have lives you need to get back to. You can't be here forever.

I'm not really game to trade a couple weeks of freedom for another life... but I see your point.

[ Everything's just stopgap solutions, isn't it... ]

Although you should really include yourself in that too, you know?

[There's never really been a solution to any of it. They'd just been trying to prevent things for three weeks now, and still failed. Spirits were kind of low at the moment.

And it really showed as Rakka's head dipped, her voice breaking a bit with the first word.]

I guess, but... I still don't know what I am, or what I'm supposed to be doing. I remembered that I'm a Haibane, and we have special laws with Humans, but that's all.

[ That doesn't make a lot of sense out of context, but that's okay. ]

... That's just what you are, though, isn't it more important who you are?

It is.

[It doesn't make a lot of sense to Rakka in context, unfortunately.]

... I don't remember who I am. In here, I know that I'm Rakka, but nothing else about myself is coming to me.

Well, that's okay. If you've got the basics, then the rest is all detail anyway.

[ ... Bakugou is literally hashtag yolo. ]

You really think so? [That... makes a surprising amount of sense to her, actually. At least she's not crying anymore??]

So, you mean I should... start over again? I-I was thinking that all of my memories were going to come back soon... now, I don't know what to think.

[so... that didn't sound like a bad idea. Not absolutely.

She's thinking about this now. Hmm.]

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Well, you don't have to start over, exactly, but the way I see it, people are basically the result of all their experiences, right? So it doesn't really matter when those experiences happened, or if you remember them. They already are a part of who you are.

[ Again: literally he is hashtag yolo. ]

....Huh.

[She's not entirely sure how to respond to that. Partly because most of her current experiences were in a terrible murderschool where she got to see friends die. But, nevertheless she figured that he meant well with this.

Hopefully.]

I guess I still have a lot to learn about myself. [Rakka, it's only been a few weeks.] I feel like, somehow, I'm more then what I feel like right now.

Well yeah, that's how it should be. We've always gotta have more untapped potential to be better than we are in the present, or else nobody'll ever move forward.

[ ... ]

Anyway, I dunno about existential shit like that. I just feel like people have to live and not worry about it too much. Stuff like that, you'll just fuck yourself up if you think about it too hard, 'cause there are no real answers.

...Umm, okay. [and you were doing so well, Bakugou.

...It's getting Rakka to laugh a little though. Quiet and tired. But yup, that's happening.]

[ Well hey, he kinda won something here if this went from crying to where they are now! At least, he thinks so. ]

... Anyway, that's probably enough of that for one night. [ In fact, he probably filled his quota for the week. ] I can walk with you the rest of the way to the dining room, if you want.

I-I'm sorry, but it's funny. That's the first time I've heard you say things like that. [So... she sort of didn't think he knew enough about people to give her that advice??]

...Thank you. And, I would like it if we walked the rest of the way.

[....She stands up fully beside him.]

Uh, and I can walk on my own, too.

[ HE'S... NOT COMPLETELY UNSOCIALIZED... and he'll let her go, then, he's not entirely comfy being like. A pillar of support. Or something. ]

Sure... I'm not gonna go to the gathering thing, though. Kinda got other stuff on my mind.

[ He's not feeling too up to talking to people he didn't choose to talk to. ]

[A literal pillar of support, at that. But now that Rakka doesn't look like she's about to burst into tears anymore he's probably good.]

You're not? [In a way, she understood, even if she seemed a little disappointed.]

...Oh. That's alright. I think I get it.

[She doesn't, not entirely. But she understands wanting to be alone at the moment.]

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Some other time.

[ Maybe... no promises. ]

And I'll be around, just... so you know.

....Sure.

[Some other time then.]

...Oh! And, uh, thank you.

Don't mention it.

[ ... Seriously, don't. He will not know how to react and that's terrible. ]

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