trustfell | WEEK 5.

WEEK 5.

WEEK 5
Tabitha Smith, Sigrun Eide, and Solf J Kimblee are all dead. Regardless of what you think of the trial or the events leading up to it, there's no denying that you can feel the dent in your numbers now. After all, ten people are gone now.

It may be hard, but all you can do is keep going.

Saturday is given to regrouping and sleep; come Sunday morning, the clock chimes the hour at seven o'clock and there are no dead bodies to be found, so it can be assumed that all of you are safe for the time being. That said, you'll be feeling a little groggy when you wake up; it seems you've regained something that you didn't realize you'd lost...

What with Jericho's excitement at the last trial, it's evident now more than ever that the new floor that's opened up to you is a gift, a reward for a job well-done. Because while surviving is something that you'll continue to try to do of your own merit...well.

Let's say that he's so, so very proud of you.

~~PARTICIPANTS REMAINING: 25~~

~~PARTICIPANTS REMAINING: 24~~

PARTICIPANTS REMAINING: 23

SUNDAY | MONDAY | TUESDAY | WEDNESDAY | THURSDAY
[OOC: Welcome to week five of Trustfell! Feel free to make as many top levels as you'd like and tag out to other characters! This post is for all of your interactions this week... at least until the weekend. Don't forget to save those threads for coins and the activity check!

If you'd like to get in contact with the Coordinators, you can do so through private meetings with Alena!]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

...Wh...

[Wait. Wait, what, what was this--this isn't--]

Did you...mean to say something else, then? I thought you were a little...well, I wasn't sure what I did to make you think that our friendship was in jeopardy...

[Her hands...flutter close to her chest, just kind of needing a moment.]

I...it's okay, but...was there something else, then...?

That's just it, it...

[ She can't leave her dangling here. Alex just has to find some way to rip the bandage off. Just... ]

It wasn't our...friendship that I was trying to talk about. I- I wanted to talk about um...other feelings. [ That tingly feeling on her skin, as she fiddles with the hand in her pocket, and then pulls it out. She isn't holding anything, but it seems she was...playing with the antenna of a radio, in there. ] The...um...romantic-type...kind?

[...it's amazing how one word can utterly recontextualize an entire conversation.

Because Sayaka's eyes proceed to widen like hell, and her face--her face reddens. It's red, just like that night where they were just...hugging, and she said a lot, and--]

Is...is that so? [She seems stunned. Legitimately stunned, and her face...well, she doesn't know what to do with it.] You...want to talk about those with...with me...?

[ Her jaw's tightening up and no you don't not today Alex has remembered a lot since after the trial, and all of it's showing her if she can do that, she can sure as hell--

She nods furiously. Okay, words would be nice to go with that too, honey. ] I- god, I've been thinking since- for nights, and then- then that asshole started throwing around memories and I can't...get any of it straight anymore-

[ that's kind of the issue to begin with eyyyyyy no shut up ]

- I-I just- I knew I-I had to say...say something, I- ...I...like you.

[For nights? What on earth--she can't possibly mean that. She can't possibly mean everything that she's saying right now, she can't mean it toward her. She can't. Even if their memories are on the line there's absolutely no way Alex could possibly--]

["...I...like you."

Oh.

Well this is. Um.]

...Oh...ooooooh my god...?

[Holy fuck, her eyes--her eyes have gone wide. They're wide with everything that she was coming to expect just...being dashed before her eyes. Everything she'd expected from this conversation, and she did not actually expect Alex to say something like that. She didn't expect Alex to actually feel anything toward her--maybe friendship, yes, but never anything like this. A girl like her, an idol, even--she was the kind of person who was supposed to reject all of that and be pure. Pure, good, innocent, and...

Sayaka can feel herself beginning to shake with fear. This girl...she could be gone by Friday. From her memories, from her thoughts, from...everything. Had she ever really left them? She's been feeling so odd about her for a long time, she's always had this light sort of feeling around Alex. That she liked being called cute by her, that she liked Alex praising her or telling her that all of those quirks...everything she kind of naturally got, they were her. She enjoyed the compliments and complimenting, she enjoyed so much about Alex.

She...really does mean the world to Sayaka. And for a while, all she can do is think is that this girl...she was a view into another world she's never seen before, and one that she wanted to see the world with. If this was their last chance, then...]

[Sayaka gets up, her eyes just...almost unblinking, and her face flushed almost beyond recognition. It's an almost instantaneous motion, and her hands seem to slam on the table while she gets up, and goes to Alex's side. She wants to be closer. She...she just wants, at this point, just--

If Alex will let her, she's going to go right up to Alex and hug her, just...shaking like hell, but...]

Oh...oh, Alex...

[Come on Sayaka, you've been an idiot for this long, don't--]

I--I like you, too. You mean the world to me, and I...I never would have guessed that you'd like me back...!

[...She may need a bit, good god. But her tone, if nothing else? It sounds genuinely joyous.]

Edited 2017-10-13 06:20 (UTC)

[ There it is. A smile that's so different from the practiced ones Sayaka's showed her, showed everyone here. Despite how sudden Sayaka moves, that's what Alex acknowledges first. It's...such a lovely smile? It's so real, and--

She is. The static in her head, the whispering. God. For the first time since she started remembering, it's... All of it's quiet. ]

[ A hug. Right, a hug! That can happen- Alex is swept into it before she even realizes. A flittering, dancing emotion sweeps through her stomach, one she recognizes as a sweet, rapturous feeling. It's underscored by a wistful touch of pain, as most everything is, in a brief if only Michael could see me now, but it passes. ...It's passing more often than it used to.

Maybe that's the thing about time healing, or...something. "If you could meet the people I have, Mike," she'd say to him. "If I could just introduce you. If I could talk to you for an afternoon. If I could tell you, off-script, what I've been through. Mike, I miss you so..."

Her precious memories, on the line...

...She hugs back, tight, in a moment. You aren't here right now. She is. I am. Michael wouldn't want her, to live tethered by fear. She has to try and remember that, as difficult as it is.

Even if just for this week. ]

[ Tighter, tighter. While she can, she's going to hold on-- she won't let Sayaka slip away with the tide. In contrast, she's standing still and smiling into Sayaka's shoulder. This is...genuinely a better answer than she'd expected? Not that she'd expected a negative, just well the idol industry, everyone.

She lets out a laugh. ] Dummy, I'm not exactly subtle.

[ ...at least she's self-aware dear god ]

Of course I do, you- how could I not?

[God, she's holding on as tight as she can--she doesn't want to let Alex go. She doesn't want anything to happen to her, or anything to get between them in this moment. She's never felt this...utterly elated, this free in her goddamn life. She's been so used to being in a cage of stage lights and managers and expectations, but in this moment--in this one moment? She can truly be happy, and free, and this is what she wants.

What she would give to have the chance to tell them all to go to hell--that she's found her place in the world, and someone to share that place with. She's...]

Right, like I'm not the person to miss subtle cues...

[...she's usually much better at it than she was with this. Maybe it's just--from all of the emotional repression she's done. She wants to break the walls of this place down and just travel everywhere with Alex, and see the world...and...

...Well, she will take one selfish action before speaking up again--a peck on the cheek. One that's not going to come from a dare this time, but makes her heart feel light as air all the same.]

I...I didn't think that anyone would, silly...I never thought anyone would really be able to see me, and have those feelings for...the girl that I am, not just the one I play up on the stage! I'm so happy, I feel like I'm walking on air, and it's...it's all because of you...

[ ...A little kiss, that's great, it is though Alex goes stiff but not like...scared or anything, just a little type of jump-surprise, because oh gosh. Another tiny laugh slips out, and it's like-

For once it's like she's floating on top of the water instead of being dragged down by it. ]

Well, I- I didn't think I was- in a place where I could, feel like that or...be happy like this, s-so...that's because of you too. [ She...wants to look at her, one moment. ] You're- you've done so much for me.

[God, this is--this is amazing, it's almost exactly like her shoujo manga? But no, comparing it to that--that's kind of cruel, and that doesn't even come close to matching the feeling that floods through her chest, the warmth, the fluttering, the--everything? Everything.]

...No, no, I...I get that. I really...I really do. You've done so much for me, too, and...I'm so happy that I could make you feel like that...

[Sayaka withdraws her face a bit, but mostly so she can stare at Alex, too, with just...the biggest damn grin, and enough blush on her face that it probably looks childish. She's so happy, and it's glorious.]

[ Who says being childish is a bad thing? ...The blush is more cute than anything. God. Someone's going to walk in and find them and it's going to be embarrassing but Alex doesn't care, she just wants to keep this moment forever. ]

We're- we're just gonna keep going in circles, aren't we? I'm happy, that you're happy, that... [ She giggles. ] Jeez, what a mess.

Well, I mean, if it's you I'm going in circles with...I'll go in circles until I'm dizzy and on the ground. I suppose you've got a bit of a point, though...

[Sayaka giggles a bit, just kind of...wanting to snuggle up to Alex so much, but staring at her face seems to be working just fine. She wants to commit this moment to memory--make sure she could never forget it. She could never forgive herself if she did.]

But, well...I've never done something like this before. What's the next step in this...?

[She seems to be joking, at least? ...It's not being genuinely lost, it's something.]

[ ...A slow nervous grin. ]

A-aaaahhhh... Ummm, well... I've...gone out with a few people, it's usually...a movie, or hand holding or...um... Sometimes, there's...a kiss.

[ #Smooth ]

[...All of those sound so wonderful, really. If there were good movies and a place to play them, she'd give anything to be able to go on a date, or just...continue to hold Alex's hands, forever? Maybe forever. Their hands would probably get sweaty after a while.

...That last bit, though, that...well, she didn't know if a dry lump had already formed in her throat, but...well...]

...Would...you like that, then? To...a kiss...?

[She's shaking a little, again, but she's smiling. The nerves are practically killing her, but her adrenaline is just kind of rushing like a bunch of hornets, or...something.]

[ ...Well, all her adrenaline she's been running on has kind of dried up so she's about as nervous as Sayaka is, but there's that little voice in her head again that's taken to sounding like Aligula calling for her to kiss the girl and honestly she hasn't seen The Little Mermaid in years but she can still hear the dumb song, shut up and don't let the Sunken hear it-- ]

U-uh. [ A very nice high-pitched squeak. ] If- ifyouwantto. I- I would.

[i can't believe the sunken are gonna be singing the entire time they smooch

Still, uh. That is...]

...That was really adorable~!

[Sayaka giggles, brightly, just...kind of leaning closer. She's actually just...not sure what to do, and looking at Alex for some help here. She's, uh.

...It's probably blindingly obvious that this is her first kiss here.]

[ THEY BETTER FUCKING NOT SHUT UP GHOSTS

Okay.

Okay, no, she knows what it's time for, it's time for her to step up and do this okay Alex you're good, you're. Good. ]

Y-yeah, uh. Ah...

[ come on alex get ya head in the game ]

[ With a quick breath, she licks her lips and...very conscious of how she had eggs for breakfast this morning or that if Sayaka rubs against her hair too much, it might stain her clothes, or...about a thousand other things, ghosts in her head notwithstanding.

But, that breath is all she needs to suck it up, so to speak, and she closes her eyes and moves in gently for a kiss. One that's bound to be gentle, and short, but more than the peck on the cheek Sayaka's given her. ]

[Sayaka honestly isn't sure what to expect when it comes to kisses--sure, all of the stuff she's read makes it sound like the best thing in the world. That when someone kisses you, it's the best feeling in the world and the whole world stops for you and them. It's so...overly dramatized, much like everything else in the world.

Time doesn't stop and the environment doesn't go all sparkly, nor does fitting music start to play. But...the quiet simplicity of it all, of feeling Alex's lips against hers is enough. It's more than enough, and it makes warmth flood through her chest and her eyes close as she returns the kiss tentatively. Kindly, even--even if it's clear she has no clue what she's doing, and she's...returning, as best as she can, the warmth that she feels.

It's...nice. It's nice, and she could stay like that forever, honestly, but it's gentle and short and when she pulls back, Sayaka just...kind of lets that feeling set, for a little bit. She looks so content, for once...]

[ There's a certain amount of stress, being someone's first kiss. Even with the moment being so close and intimate, it's on her mind. That's why the response is welcome, and Alex's hands - they've found Sayaka's forearms, the both of them - tighten their grasp a little.

She pulls back when Sayaka does, letting her set the pace and...being very content with this relaxed, chaste sort of courtship. After everything they've been through, something simple's appreciated. ]

So... Good, huh?

...Very good. Better than...anything I've ever read, and anything I could've dreamed of...

[Not that it's much, all things considering, but it's certainly everything she could have asked for and more. It's so wonderful, and the touch...well, that doesn't get Sayaka to seize, but she practically melts a bit under Alex.

...She is very touch starved but also very happy, god, and she just kind of...tentatively cups one of Alex's cheeks? She's not good at this, but she's...trying.]

You...mean the world to me, you silly goose, so of course it'd be the best. ♥

WEEK 5.

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

1/? oh god i'm sorry in advance

2/?

3/?

4/4

1/2

2/3 oops

3/3

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

1/2

2/2

no subject

no subject

no subject

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)